Saturday, November 13, 2010

Re: Charice as Icon of Tommorow

I went to an internet cafe ngayon to download songs. Since my friend told me that mp3-codes.com is one of the best sources when it comes to free downloading sites, I visited it. Instead of downloading songs as soon as I opened the site, here I am, re-posting one of it's recent posts. Thank you very much MusicGeek for this article. I loved it as much as I love Charice, the most talented girl in the world.

Charice won the Icon of Tomorrow prize in J-14 magazine’s Teen Icon Awards, besting her 5 other fellow teen nominees from the United States and Australia. An article posted on her fan site on Tuesday announced the 18-year-old international singing sensation's victory. She defeated teen stars Bella Thorne, Bridgit Mendler, Frankie Jonas and Greyson Chance from the US and Australian Cody Simpson. According to the J-14 website, the first-ever Teen Icon Awards honored the hottest teen stars, movies, television shows, music, and web stars over the past year. The award is the “Pyramid” singer’s newest achievement since invading the international music scene. Recently, the Filipino songstress ranked No. 4 in US Billboard's Top Stars Under 21. The New York Daily News reported that she might be the first Asian to become a major pop singer in the US. 

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

I Miss You

I miss my friends way back in high school. Matagal ko na silang di nakikita. Kelan kaya reunion namin?

Miss ko na din college classmates and friends ko. Yung mga taong naging dahilan kung bakit napamahal sa'kin ang Polangui.

At siyempre, miss ko din yung mga naging kawork ko sa

COSI: ang pinakaunang employer ko kung saan madami ako naging friends at siya ring dahilan kung bakit ako nagkaroon ng dear boardmates sa Legazpi;

SL: Kung saan ako mas natutong magtipid, hehe (Peace!) Ito din yung company kung saan natutunan kung paano ngumiti kahit madami ng iniisip. (Good thing kasi na mga kalog ang co-workers ko dun.) Hehe; at

NSO: Kung saan ako nagkaroon ng co-workers na mga mas bagets pa sa'kin. Hehe.

Hay buhay... People really come and go. Whether they (or you) miss me, ito lang masasabi ko: I miss you.

Note: In case you're not a sentimental person, sorry po kung nagiging part ka ng senti mode ko. Ganito lang kasi ako... Once na naging part ka ng buhay ko, di talaga kita makakalimutan.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Mga Nakakalokang Adventures Ko

Alam ko, August na ngayon at medyo late na nga kung magkukwento pa ako ng tungkol sa mga nangyari sa mga nakaraang buwan. Pero wala akong pakialam, eh type ko talagang magkwento, 'no?

May pa lang, alam ko ng magiging busy ako by June at magiging memorable sa'kin ang month na 'yun. (Obviously, busy talaga ako nitong nakaraang mga buwan. Ni hindi nga ako naka-update 'tong blog ko. Hehe) Nung first week ng June (June 3 to be exact), umuwi ako ng Pio Duran (Piox in short, hehe) di para magbakasyon kundi para magfit ng damit pang-abay. Hmmm siyempre, buwan kaya ng mga kasalan ang June, 'no? Actually, June 5 pa naman ang kasal pero a-tres pa lang umuwi na 'ko para makapagbakasyon na rin. Hehe, pasimple pang tambay. Ang kaso, on the way pa lang ako, tinext na ako ng inaplayan ko (kasi nga naiinis na ako sa company na tinatrabahuhan ko that time) na interview ko daw kinabukasan, June 4 @ 4pm. Gosh, kaloka talaga. Hayun, kinaumagahan nga, balik ako dito sa Legazpi at bongga! Ang saya ng interview. Take note: tatlo ang interviewer! San ka pa?! Pero okay naman, kering keri na yun, hehe.

After the interview, uuwi na sana ako. I mean, punta na sana ako ng Piox. Kaso, di na ako nakahabol sa last trip. Kaya hayun, nakitulog ako kina Kaye sa Ligao. Pero siyempre, super maaga akong umalis ng Ligao kasi ayokong ma-late. Imagine, 5am pa lang, ready na anek (define anek: ako) magbiyahe. Around 7am pa lang andun na ako sa venue ng reception (dun kasi kami aayusan at magbibihis ng bonggang dressessessesses, haha). Kung may di man ako nagustuhan, yun ay ang fact na naglakad kami from the reception's venue to the church kung saan ginanap yung kasalan. Hakhak, nag unahan kasi mga tao sa sasakyan, hayun ang kawawang mga abay, naglakad. Overall, enjoy yung kasalan. And take note, ako ang nakasalo ng bridal bouquet. First time ko pa naman nun sumabay dun sa mga sasalo ng bouquet, ahahay!

As in busy talaga ako nung first few days ng June. Imagine, two times ako nag-abay? Nung June 9, pumunta ako ng Libon, sa bahay nina Ate Shie kasi kasal niya kinabukasan (June 10). Born Again pala ang religion ni Kuya Paul, yung long-time boyfriend ni Ate Shie at I thought nagpa-convert na rin siya dun kasi hindi sa simbahan ng Katoliko sila kinasal. Pero hindi naman pala. In fairness, ang ganda ng wedding nila. Di ko inexpect na ganun kaganda ang ceremony ng kasal sa kanila. During the ceremony kasi, ini-explain ni Pastor yung meaning ng bawat part ng ceremony. Halimbawa, yung candles, sinisindihan daw yun during the wedding  ceremony to symbolize the patience of the couple to each other. Pag napundi daw ang isa, dapat sindihan ng isa para maging maliwanag ulit. Then, yung gintong singsing naman, nagsi-symbolize daw yun sa di kumukupas na pagmamahalan ng couple.

Pagkatapos ng halos magkasunod na pag-abay ko sa kasal, bumalik na ulit at nag-focus na ako sa work ko sa not-so-good-company-but-keep-on-hiring. Then, June 21, nagkasundo kami ng mga ka-work ko na mag-jamming kina Ate Mitch. Bale pa-despidida 'ata ki Jef, hehe. Wala akong idea - actually sila din - na magiging sobrang memorable pala ang jamming na yun.I thought, isang simpleng tambay lang yun, pero hindi pala. Well, kung sa pagka-simple, simple naman talaga.Kumain kami ng junk foods at manga (courtesy of Jef). At siyempre, may konting inuman din, haha. Yun nga lang,medyo may na-miss ata ako kasi umakyat ako room nina Ate Mitch para magpahinga ng konti nang sumakit ang tiyan ko. Actually, parehas kami ni Ate Vioj iba ang pakiramdarm that day pero siya nag-stay lang dun sa umpukan. Akala nga nila, nagjo-joke lang ako na masakit ang tiyan ko kasi ayaw ko uminom. Tapos nung pinagbigyan ko ng isang tagay, nakita ko parang may insekto sa baso kaya kinutsara ko. Tawanan sila. Hahaha. Picture, picture! Huli sa akto! Bigla akong nakapag-pauso ng bagong style ng pagtagay: gumamit ng kutsara. Hahahaha!

Kinaumagahan (June 22), hindi ako nakapasok sa work kasi nagka-trangkaso ako. Pagbalik ko sa work (June 23), saka ko lang nalaman na pati pala si Ate Vioj di rin pumasok nung 22 kasi nagkasakit din pala siya. Tawa kami ng tawa kasi may nag-joke na baka daw dahil sa jamming kaya kami biglang nagkasakit. O kaya naman daw, baka tinamaan kami ng "delayed salary" virus, hahaha! Nung nagkasakit ako, dun ko na-realize na di na ako dapat nagti-tiyaga sa company na yun kung ganung delayed na lang ng delayed ang sahod. Ni hindi kasi ako pinagbigyan kahit sinabi kong ibibili ko ng gamot yung kukunin ko. Hmmp, pasamba man talaga ang mga tao dun sa accounting department, hmp! Hmp!

Pagkatapos ng ilang araw, bumalik na naman ang trangkaso ko. After nun, nag-decide na akong mag-resign. Mas mabuti pang tumambay na lang ako sa bahay kesa ganyang nagkakasakit ako, wala man lang pambili ng gamot - daig pa ang jobless. Pero nagulat ako ng sabihin ko sa mga ka-work ko na magri-resign na ako. Bakit? Kasi may "mga" kasabay ako magresign. Gosh, apat kaming sabay-sabay nagresign.

Hanggang ngayon, parang napi-feel ko pa rin ang pagod at hang-over na excitement sa mga nangyari Last June. Napapangiti ako pag naaalala ko yung pag-abay ko at naloloka naman pag yung pag-resign namin ang naiisip ko. Pag tinatanong ko ang sarili ko kung nagsisi ba ako sa pag-resign, ang sagot ko: malakas na "HINDI!" Yun ang isa sa pinakamagandang desisyong ginawa ko ever. Masaya ako sa kung anumang meron ako ngayon. Siguro kung di ako nag-resign dun, wala ako dito sa work ko ngayon na super enjoy. Sana masaya din ang management ng not-so-good-company na yun na minsan kong naging employer.

To Siony and her husband (forgot ko yung name) and Ate Shie and Kuya Paul, good luck po sa marriage nyo. Sa mga ka-work ko na kasabay ko mag-resign, enjoy your life outside that not-so-good-company, hehe. Sa mga naiwan, be patient. Yun lang. Ahihi.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Labs, Yummy Birthday!



Happy Birthday to You…
Happy Birthday to You…
Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday to You!!!


Wala akong ibang masabi, hehe. Alangan naman sabihin kong sana mag-asawa ka na, baka batukan mo ako, eh..hehe .Kaya Happy Birthday na lang, ha? Miss you Miss Gigie Marbella. Have a yummy birthday my dear, my love, hehe :D

Thursday, June 17, 2010

I am a Proud PCOS Tech

Di ako makapaniwalang June 17 na pala ngayon. Parang kelan lang, May pa lang - election pa lang. Diyos ko, ang bilis ng mga araw. By the way, nasabi ko na ba sainyo na nag-PCOS technician ako nung May 10 election? Yes, I became a part of the first automated election here in the Philippines. Akala ko nung nag-submit ako ng resume sa PESO, di na ako makakahabo. Buti na lang nakahabol pa kahit pa'no.

Actually, last week of February pa yata ako nun nagsubmit ng resume pero nung March 4 lang ako in-inform na kasama pala ako sa mag-i-exam the following day. Gosh! Sa sobrang pagka-excite ko, nagleave pa ako noon sa work ko, haha. Enjoy naman yung one-day exam. Nung umaga, lecture...then sa hapon, exam and demo. After nun, sunod-sunod na ang pangyayari. Pinaasikaso na kami ng requirements and nag-attend ng iba't ibang meetings with our PCOS Supervisors.

The election day is great and being a PCOS technician is one of the greatest experiences I ever had. Yun ang pinaka-enjoy kong work - yung tipong para lang akong nakikipag-chikahan sa mga tao while working. Some people may think I'm exaggerating, but I don't care. Ano'ng magagawa ko kung proud akong naging part ng first ever automated election sa Pinas? Besides, successful ang naging election, di ba? Oh, sorry...may iba palang nagsasabi na kesyo pre-programmed daw yung ibang machines. Well, bahala sila kung gusto nilang lokohin ang sarili nila. Besides, wala pa ako nalamang nanalo na nag-claim na may pre-programmed machines nga. Pag nangyari yun, baka pwede pa ako maniwala sa sinasabi nila. Kung bakit naman kasi magsasalit ang mga "bitter" na yun kung kelan natalo na sila? Hay, buhay...

Sa ngayon, balik trabaho na naman ako. How I wish lagi na lang election para lagi akong may work at umuulan ng pera. Hahaha! Weird 'no? Pag election kasi, kahit di kayo close ng isang pulitiko, bibigyan ka niya ng pera kahit di ka humihingi. Pero ngayon, diyos ko! Kahit magmalimos siguro, wala ng budget kasi naubos na, hehehe joke!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

_t.m.k. adik_

If only I could turn back the time...

Sana nung March 25, 2010 @ 1:28am, di mo na lang na-click name ko sa chatbox ng facebook. Sana di ka na lang nagtype ng "hello =)"..Sana di na lang ako nagreply...Sana di na nasundan ng ilang beses ang pagchat natin...Sana di mo na lang kinuha number ko...Sana di na lang tayo nagtext-text...Sana di na lang tayo naging close.

Masaya naman ako dati na hanggang tingin lang ako, pero bakit ngayon pa?! Ngayong mahal na mahal na kita? Alam kong wala akong magagawa kung aalis ka. If what makes you happy, happy na din ako. Pasensiya ka na, I just can't fight this feeling anymore :-(

_t.m.k. adik_
Sori 2 ds2rb ur slip guyz :-(

Yan ang madramang text na nareceive ko noong May 31, 2010 @ 2:27:53am from my dear friend. Siguro, kung di ko siya friend, baka batukan ko siya kasi ang sarap ng tulog ko, biglang may mang-iisturbo, hmp! Hahaha, joke lang, girl!

Actually, di yun ang unang "madramang" text na narecieve ko sa friend kong yun na tatawagin ko as "J." Since makilala niya yata si crush niya na tinatawag niyang "adik," lagi na siyang naga-unli text para makapagshare ng feelings niya kay adik. Noong una, di ko masyado pinapansin ang mga text ni J kasi iniisip ko, chain messages lang yun. Pero habang lumilipas ang mga araw, napapansin kong parang may pinapatamaan siya sa mga text niya. Gaya ng ibang friends niya na walang idea kung sino ang maswerteng tao na 'to na bida sa mga text niya, na-curious ako na alamin kung sino siya.

Then, I found out na yun nga - siya pala si adik, na crush na crush ni J. Naalala ko tuloy na one time, nagtext pala yun si J na nakasabay daw niya sa jeep ang crush niya at ililibre sana siya ng pamasahe kaso nakabayad na siya. Wow, haba ng hair niya, 'no? (Inggit tuloy ako, ahihi!) To set the record straight, sasabihin ko muna kung ano ba ang friend ko na 'to. Okay, gay siya at na-inlove siya sa isang guy na ka-work niya.

So, yun...nalaman ko na rin sa wakas kung sino ang crush niya. I have no idea tungkol sa ugali ni adik kasi di ko siya kilala personally, pero I can tell, base sa friends ko, na mabait siyang tao. Hindi naman siguro "mahuhumaling" o "maaadik" sa kanya ang friend ko kung bad siya, di ba?


I just hope pwede talaga nating makatuluyan ang taong mahal natin. Siguro kung ganun ang mangyayari, di na mauuso ang word na "brokenhearted" at wala na ring status sa facebook na "single" or "complicated," tama?

Ayokong sanang sabihin na impossible na maging sila (sina J at adik) for life, pero yun naman talaga ang totoo and let's face that fact. Hindi ito ang first time na may friend akong na-inlove sa "maling tao," and I'm not blaming them for loving someone who can't be with them for life. I understand my friends' feelings and I know how it feels to love someone kahit sa sandaling panahon. People may judge my friends and call them stupid, but there's one clear fact: gays and other transgender individuals also have the right to love and be loved back. The only hard thing is that there's no assurance on how long their loved one will hold on to the "special friendship" they shared.

Bigla ko tuloy naalala yung 2006 movie ni Keanna Reeves na "Reyna" kung saan ginampanan niya ang papel na Ivanca Lastrada, an aspiring beauty queen but end up joining a beauty pageant for gays. Basahin nyo na lang ang online reviews sa movie na yun or bili kayo ng CD nun kung gusto nyo mapanood buong story, hehe. Nakaka-touch kasi yung lines niya dun about sa mga bading. Favorite scene ko yung sumali siya sa gay beauty contest at tinanong siya kung bakit dapat pahalagahan ang mga bakla (actually, i forgot the exact question, basta something like that yun). Then, yung sagot na ganito (not exactly ganito, pero yun yung mini-mean niya): "Dapat pahalagahan ang mga bakla dahil sila yung mga taong nagmamahal ng totoo, nagmamahal ng sobra. Kahit minsan alam nilang niloloko lang sila ng bf nila, okay lang sa kanila. Gumagawa pa rin sila ng mabuti. Tumutulong sila sa family nila at maging sa family ng boyfriend nila." Haay, basta...hindi ako bakla pero gusto ko ang mga sinabi ng character ni Keanna dun. After watching the movie, mas lalo kong na-appreciate ang mga bakla (pwera lang sa mga warfreak, hehe - gaya nung gustong mang-away sa'min ni Cha noon kahit wala naman kami ginagawang masama).

Kung may nakikita man kayong bakla na in-love na in-love sa isang guy, hayaan nyo na. Right nila yun. Hangga't di ka naman niya ginagawan ng masama, wag nyo na silang pakialaman, unless siyempre kung boyfriend nyo yung ka-"MU" nya, hehe joke! Pero ako, pwera biro, okey lang siguro kung may ka-"MU" na bading ang bf ko. At least, di lang ako ang nagmamahal sa kanya, di ba? (Kaso ayaw daw niya i-try, ahihi.) Besides, sigurado namang magkaiba ang level ng love ng boys para sa kanilang gf at ka-"MU" na gay. I'm not saying na mas mahigit yung love nila sa girls. Sabi nga, you can never love two persons in the same way, tama? I believe it's possible for a person to fall in love into two persons pero imposible na pareho ang love niya sa taong yun.

To all transgender people na in-love ngayon - kilala ko man kayo o hindi - enjoy the moment pero wag nyo naman ibubuhos ang mundo nyo sa taong mahal nyo. Look around, spend time with your family and friends dahil sila ang mga taong never kayong iiwan. Sila din yung mga taong for life ang commitment sa'yo - they will never leave you, unless ikaw mismo ang gumawa ng paraan para layuan ka or di sila tunay na ka-family or friends. Also, don't entertain criticism kung di mo kayang ipagtanggol ang sarili mo, just ignore them. Lastly, don't forget people who understand you. Of course, there's God. Though sinasabing wala daw nilalang na transgender si God, He will never let you down because he loves you whoever you are.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Wag Ka Makialam Dude

"WAG KA MAKIALAM DUDE" - Yan ang pinakanakakainis na comment na nabasa or narinig ko ever! Hindi dahil sa guilty ako or ano pa man, pero...badtrip talaga ako sa taong to na nagsabi ng "stupid" line na yan sa'kin ngayon. I wish him to stay away from me kung ayaw niyang makakuha ng katapat. Ang kapal ng mukha niyang magtanong ng kung anu-ano sa'kin tapos isang tanong ko lang sa kanya, bawal? Ano yun? Gawin ko din kaya sa'yo ang mga ginagawa mo? Ano kaya ang mapi-feel mo?

 Next time, mag-ingat ka dude sa pagsasalita mo, okay?

Friday, May 14, 2010

What You Are Really Afraid Of

Hello guys! Grabe, ang daming nangyari these past few days habang nagbabakasyon ako sa mahal kong Bayan ng Pio Duran. Haist! Grabe talaga. Saka ko na lang ina-narate sainyo ang mga yun. Since wala pa ako sa mood para magdaldal about my memorable and exciting vacation, I will share na lang my favorite quote from a friend. Heto yun:

"What you are really afraid of:

You're not scared of the dark;
you're just scared of what's in it.

You're not afraid of heights;
you're just afraid of falling.

You're not afraid of the people around you;
you're just afraid of rejection.

You're not afraid to love;
you're just afraid of not being loved back.

And you're not afraid to try again;
you're just afraid of getting hurt for the same reason."

Hmmmm...simple pero may laman, di ba? Now, I know na hindi naman talaga ako takot magmahal ng todo. Marahil, takot lang akong di masuklian ng taong mahal ko ang pagmamahal ko sa kanya. (Sounds cheesy ba? Ahehehe!) O kaya naman, takot akong matulad sa mga kaibigan at kakilala ko na nagmahal na nga, niloko pa. (Hmmm..bitter mood naman tayo, hehe.) Basta kung anuman ang kinatatakutan ko, yun na yun...Bakit takutin nyo pa ako, eh. Hahahaha!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Sad to Belong


Hi friends! Alam nyo, ang dami kong gustong sabihin sa blog na 'to pero parang nauubusan ako ng energy to do that. So, ang gagawin ko na lang ngayon ay isi-share ko ang isa sa mga kantang nagustuhan ko ng di inaasahan. Actually, narinig ko na 'to noon pa pero di ko masyado na-appreciate. Pero nung kinanta 'to ng pinsan kong si Ate Rochelle (nung reunion namin sa Daraga), parang na-feel ko bigla yung message ng song na 'to.


Sad to Belong
(by  England Dan And John Ford Coley)


Met you on a springtime day
You were mindin your life
And I was minding mine too
Lady when you look my way
I had a strange sensation
and darling that's when I knew

That it's sad to belong to someone else
when the right one comes along
Yes it's sad to belong to someone else
when the right one comes along

Oh, i wake up in the night
And i reach beside me hoping you will be there
But instead I find someone
who believed in me when I said
I'd always care

Oh, it's sad to belong to someone else
when the right one comes along
yes it's sad to belong to someone else
when the right one comes along

so i live my life in a dream world
for the rest of my days
just you and me walking hand in hand
in a wishful memory
oh, i guess that's all that it could ever be

wish i had a time machine, i could
make myself come back until the day
i was born
and i will live my life again
and rearrange it so that i'll be yours from now on

oh, it's sad to belong to someone else
when the right one comes along
yes, it's sad to belong to someone else
when the right one comes along
(repeat)



Hmmmm..... Baka ano isipin ng iba diyan. Ewan ko, ba...feel ko talaga ang song na 'to. Pero uunahan ko na kayo, okay? Hindi ako tinatamaan ng song na 'yan. Trip ko lang siya, hahaha. (Defensive mode, hahahahahahahaha joke!!) Thanks to http://www.lyricsdownload.com/england-dan-and-john-ford-coley-sad-to-belong-lyrics.html for the lyrics of this song.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Chain Text.......for a Cause?

Sino kaya ang mga taong 'to na walang magawa kundi siraan si Noynoy, isa sa mga Presidential candidtaes para sa darating na May 10, 2010 election. Naisip ko nang una akong makatanggap ng text from an unknown sender, bakit kaya sila nagsasayang ng load para siraan siya? Heto ang number ng unang nagtext sa'kin noong March 13: +639995177260. Actually, hindi ko ma-gets ang text niya kasi putol. Ito lang ang nakuha ko: "7 peasant farmers, who were protesting their take home pay of P9.50-a-day at the Cojuanco/Aquino-owned Hacienda Luisita in Tarlac, were murdered in cold*"...hayun, putol na. Kainis, magbibigay pa sila ng "information", putol pa! Ano ba yan? Di ko tuloy maintindihan ng lubos kung ano ang ibig nilang sabihin.

Yung pangalawang texter naman na may cp number +639995109726, nagtext siya noong March 23. Actually, nawala yung unang part ng text niya. Pero heto ang buong text message na natanggap ko: "* ma COO ng hacienda. ?No. WE'RE NOT GOING TO!! Ayon sa New York Times, 5yrs ng nilalabanan ng mga Cojuanco/Aquino sa SUPREME COURT ang utos ng pamahalaan na ipamahagi ang LUPA!" Ewan ko kung totoo yun, pero I'll make sure na ire-research ko ang issue na yan before election.

Then today, March 30, saka pa lang ako nakatanggap ng buong text from Noynoy's detractors. According to my texter na may cp number +639995342301, "NOY ipinagbabawal ang MEDIA magtanong tungkol sa Hacienda. Ngayon pa lang, puro cover-up na. Pa'no kaya pag naging pangulo na? Pls pass to unmask  TRUTH about NOY!" Hmmmm, mukhang grabe ang tama ng mga 'to. Hindi talaga sila titigil hangga't di bumibitiw ang tao kay Noynoy.

Pero kahit papa'no may advantage naman ang mga text na 'to. Aminin??? Iri-reply ko sana yung unang texter kaso natakot ako noon na baka madami i-charge sa'kin kasi baka sa abroad ang number na yan (wow, sosyal..haha joke lang. I know, dito lang yan sa Pinas). Naisip ko kasi sayang naman ang load ko, hehe. Sayang naman.

Teka, bakit ko ba 'to pinost na mga text nila? Excuse me, di ko 'to ginawa para siraan si Noy. Gusto ko lang i-display ang numbers na text ng text sa'kin. Hayan, sikat na sila, hahaha. Mabuti pa yun network na yun, nabentahan ng madaming sim cards dahil sa election. Kumikitang kabuhayan talaga, hehehe. Sa texters na yan, sana padala din kayo ng load para siguradong maipasa ko ang chain text na yan. Pwede?

Ay, sandali? Bakit pala sabi noong third texter (hindi ko sinabing last kasi baka may magsend pa, hehe)  please pass? Sure ba siyang nakumbinse niya ako? What if, isa pala ako sa mga supporters ni Aquino? Hay...buhay. Amoy-election na talaga.

P.S. May nagtext din pala sa globe number ko. Sabi ng texter with mobile number +639085866496 sa text niya nung February 10, "Kaibigan, gusto mo bang maging KOMUNISTA ang ating bansa? Kung HINDI, vote wisely! Wag iboto ang mga partylist na BAYAN MUNA, ANAKPAWIS, ANAKBAYAN, MAKABAYAN, KABATAAN, GABRIELA, AT SINA sina Satur Ocampo, Liza Masa, Riza Honteveros, Tedy Casiño. Isa lamang sila na sumusuporta sa makakaliwang grupo na ang layunin ay palitan ang ating DEMOKRASYA. Send it to your friends and relatives as many as you can. Ang bawat text mo ay mahalaga. Salamat, kaibigan."

Hay, nakakaloka ang texters na 'to. Nagsasayang ng load para manira ng kapwa tao. Ewan ko ba? Hate ko talaga ang chain texts.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Happy Birthday, Dong!

I want to greet Tam, isa sa mga pinakamabait na lalaking nakilala ko. He's my boardmate/friend/ka-chika-han/etc, hehe too many to mention kasi kung idi-describe ko ang relationship namin, hehe.

Gaya ni Ai, di ko rin talaga in-expect na magiging friendship kami ni Tam kasi akala ko nung una seryoso siyang tao. But then, habang tumatagal ako dun sa boarding house, dun ko siya mas lalong nakilala. Siya yung tipo ng tao na akala mo di mahilig makipag-usap pero di naman pala. Ewan ko kung bakit kami naging close, basta ang alam ko naging friends kami nung maingay na 'ko, hahaha joke (pero totoo).

Since birthday niya ngayon, idi-describe ko siya sa inyo, base sa pagkakakilala ko sa kanya sa loob ng 1 year, 3 months, at 23 days. Isa si tam sa pinakanakakagulat na tao. Alam nyo kung bakit? Kasi mahilig siya manggulat. Hahaha! One time nga, akala niya ako yung nasa loob ng CR kaya inabangan niya. Pero maling-mali siya dahil si Tiya, yung tagalaba ng landlady namin ang nasa loob noon. Tawa kami ng tawa pagkarinig ko na nagkagulatan sila ni Tiya. Whatta joke, dong..hahaha! Isa yun sa pinaka-nakakatawang mga happenings sa boarding house namin. Minsan nga, kahit solo ako dun, natatawa ako pag naaalala ko yun. Funny talaga.

Actually, mula naman nang lumipat ako sa kanila, we've been friends na. Besides, we're both friendly naman kasi, hahaha! (May ganun?! Nagbuhat ba ng sariling upuan?) Pero totoo naman talaga, mabait kami pareho. Ooops, wag na magtampo iba kong boardmates. Pag birthday nyo sasabihan ko rin kayo na mababait kayo, hahaha joke! Seriously, lahat naman sila mabait. Kaya nga ayaw ko na umalis dun. As much as possible, gusto ko mag-stay dun. Aminin ko man o hindi, happy ako with their company. At hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan yung support na pinakita nila sa'kin last December. I don't want to elaborate anymore, I'm sure alam nyo naman kung ano yun. (Sa mga hindi alam ang full details about the issue, just email me, hehe. Ayaw ko i-post dito kasi I don't want to hurt myself. Ayaw ko din i-judge "na naman" ako ng ibang people, just like what they did and still doing now.)

For you, Dong (tawagan naming mga boys, hehe), happy birthday po. Hayan, dumagdag na naman ang edad mo, dapat madagdagan din ang friends mo para mas astig, di ba? Wish ko sana makabungguan mo mamaya pag-uwi ang dream girl mo. Ay, sabagay...baka nasa duty siya ngayon..hehehe peace!

Hay, tama na nga 'to. Baka batuhin mo 'ko pag nabasa mo 'to. Basta magpaalam ka pag babatuhin mo na 'ko para makahanda naman ang lola mo, hahaha. Basta Dong, maligayang kaarawan sa'yo.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Do you know how to pamper someone who hates you?

Actually, I originally posted this question to Yahoo! Answers. But then, I am not yet satisfied with the answer I got (there's only one who tried to advice me). So there, I am reposting this to get more response. This time, wala nang expiration ang question na 'to. Sa Yahoo! Answers kasi, five days lang ang timeline ng every question. After noon, close na siya.

Please be patient with my explanation.

I and my elder sister are not very close since we were young, but I know many things about her, including her gap with our father and her failed relationships. She and out father had a major fight after Papa decided not to send her in college due to financial problem and some other reasons.

(My ate sister lost the money that is supposed to be paid for the application form in entrance exam where she is set to take college. My father got furious and recalled my sisters mistakes in the past. According to Papa, my sister should stop studying because when she was in first year high school, she had too many absences without valid reasons. My father is afraid my sister would commit the same mistake. So, when she lost the money, Papa thought that she is incapable of handling cash wisely. Then, he decided to let my sister work instead of studying. My sister was so hurt and I don't know if she expressed her willingness to pursue his studies, I never had the chance to ask.)

When my sister worked somewhere in Laguna, she had relationship with two or three men, which all end to nothing. I want to extend my sympathy for her loss and being brokenhearted, but I don't know how to approach her. When she and bf (let's call him Mr. M) broke up, my sister tried to commit suicide, but my father was there - she went to Laguna to comfort my sister.

After that, everything seems alright. Last December, my sister got married with her first boyfriend. At present, she is already preggy with their first baby.

I thought, we're okay - but we're not. We've been changing text messages on the first week of February. Then, on Valentine's Day, she suddenly texted me, saying bad words like "yawa ka," I later found out means "i hate you, you're devil." She kept on cursing me. She said I must be thankful for her kindness. She said she still managed to help me even if she and Papa are not okay. That's her choice, right? And as far as I know, I did nothing wrong to her.

I think she has mental problem. I think she had a great conflict with her husband, but I have no proof. How can comfort her even if it seems she hates me?

Thanks for spending time, for reading and answering my question. May God bless us all.

P.S. Greengo, answered : "Maybe she has psychological problems and needs some counseling. Maybe you can try to encourage her to see a doctor. Just send her encouraging notes, and be positive. Always notice when she does something good, to give her more confidence. You can't change people, just support them the best you can."

Then, my friend commented : "Don't take it seriously when you sister said those words. Maybe it was your sister's way of "paglalambing" but she didn't mean it. "If Someone Throws you a Rock, Throw him a Bread instead". Try to be more considerate with your sister! Just understand her! Give her encouraging words and hope."

Well, I think, I have already done my part. As I explained to him (to my friend), I already did my best to please her, to understand her, but still...it didn't work. So, what do you think? Please leave your answers below... Thank you very much.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Why Do I Love Him?

This is the question usually asked by ladies who are confused why they loved someone. Of course, you won't ask this question if you already know the answer. So, for now, I also want to ask myself with this question: Why do I love him? Why do I love Ace?

There are some saying that we should not find reasons to love someone and I really agree with that saying. However, there are times when I can't keep myself from thinking about the reasons why I keep myself committed to this person. I have considered leaving him or breaking up with him so many times, but I always end up with him.

I'm pretty sure I don't have any feeling for him when we become an item. All I know at that time is I like having someone who'll text me every now and then, asking how's my day, what's my problem, etc. I must admit, I gradually learned to like his company and appreciate his efforts. That's the time when I start to open up my heart and give him a chance to be a part of my boring life.

If you are going to ask me when did I realized I'm already in love with him, this is my answer: It was when he took vacation (temporarily left his work) and returned here in Bicol. He dropped by in Polangui (where I am studying in College) before he went to their home. When we meet there (at Centro Polangui), that's the only time when I realized I already love him. That's the first time I told him how much I missed him (from the bottom of my heart).

Since then, I became so expressive with my feelings for him. I started telling him how much I love and miss him each time we text with each other. I also started telling my sisters about him. That's the time when I knew how it feels to be "really" in love and to be loved back. Yes, I think that's the right term. I had a long-time crush before and I think I already fell in love with him, but it seems he never know I exists. We know each other, but for him, I'm just his simple classmate. Whenever I remember him, my long-time crush, I can feel no regret at all. Wanna know why? Because his behavior towards me, I mean, the way he treated me, just made me realize that he's not the guy for me; that we're not meant to be; that I deserve someone much better than him. At the end, thanks Heavens, I realized that I didn't actually fell in love with him - it was just a simple crush.

Actually, Ace is my second boyfriend. I don't know why my relationship with my first boyfriend didn't work, but one thing is for sure: I never get hurt when we broke up. I even felt relieved after we stopped communicating with each other. Actually, we didn't had a formal break-up. We just lost our communication. That's all.

As for Ace, we started as friends and remained friends until now. Since I have no brother and he's five years older than me, I sometimes consider him as my "kuya" --- sounds weird, right? I'm so happy because I found someone like him - not a perfect boyfriend, but at least, a good one. Yes, I admit we had several fights, but even if we are facing troubles, I know he still loves me. Sometimes, I want to keep from being too confident with his feelings for me, but what can I do? That's what I feel.

I think, the greatest trial we had ever encountered was what happened on the last quarter of 2008. I thought, I am going to lose him, but thanks, God - we're still together. I still cried each time I remember that fight, but at the same time, I'm thankful. After that fight, we tried so hard to revive our relationship and it worked.

As of now, we still had some misunderstanding, but as much as possible, I don't want to take them seriously. I don't want the problems to reflect on my face, haha. I just hope Ace would always remember how much I love him. I may sometimes get attracted with cute and sweet guys I meet, but he have nothing to worry - I still belong to him and will always be, unless he give me enough reason to leave him.

So, why do I love him? Because he's one of the people who never stop loving and understanding me even if we're not in good terms. Of course, one of the biggest factors is the fact that he accepts me - he respects me and my beliefs. He likes my family and vice versa. Most of all, he's not like the other guys who will leave the girl if they still don't get "what most men want" after four years. Yes, he loved me that much and he's willing to wait the right time for that "thing." I know some girls would criticize me or would think I'm playing-hard-to-get type, but I'm not. I just want to preserve myself. (Nagpi-preserve nga tayo ng electricity, sarili pa, di ba?) Besides, I want to be a good example not only to my younger sisters, but also to all the youths. I am so glad he's always with me, willing to support and understand my views in life.

I don't know kung kami na talaga sa future. Basta ang alam ko, happy ako with him. Hope nothing will change between us, Ace.

To my one and only Ace, happy 51st monthsary. May God Bless us always. I love and miss you. Hope to see you, soon...

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

How to Earn Money Online

Sa panahon ngayon, masasabi nating most of us are experiencing financial crisis. Nakatapos ka man o hindi, aminin man natin o hindi, apektado tayo. Kaya naman patok na patok ngayon sa mga kababayan natin ang online jobs. Marami sa atin ang naghahanap ng money making opportunities. Ngunit madalas, nasasayang lang ang kanilang mga pera sa pag-i-internet, sa pagbabayad sa internet cafe dahil mga scam ang napupuntahan nila. Ang scam sites ay madalas magbigay ng kunwari ay paid survey pero sobrang hirap naman mag-cash out kasi ang taas ng minimum amount na pwede i-cash out. Sa tagal ng aking paghahanap ng money making sites, paid surveys, at paid to click sites, dalawa lang ang pinakanagustuhan ko: ang A.W.Surveys at ang MoneyBumper.

Ang A.W.Surveys ay nagbibigay ng automatic $6 once you signed up and allows you to earn as money by participating online surveys. This site also allows you have a chance to earn much as $500 a month pag sumali ka sa kanilang contest. Kahit di ka manalo, may $1 ka naman each time you complete a survey. May survey din sila na nagko-cost ng $4 to $6! Ang pinakamadaling paraan para dumami ang ipon mo sa A.W.Surveys ay mag-refer ng friends. Visit the site to know more about their latest offers. Just click the image below if you want to sign up.

Samantala, ang MoneyBumper ay hindi nagbibigay ng any amount after you joined them. Pero kung araw-araw ka nag-i-internet, this site is perfect for you. It allows you to earn $0.02 each time you bump a site. You can bump up to 5 sites only per day, pero mas okay na yun kesa wala, di ba? Pwede ka rin mag-invite ng friends to share the blessings and earn more at the same time. As your friend bump a site, you also earn $0.01. Sounds okay, di ba? Pero mas maganda siguro kung magregister kna, hehe. Click the image to sign up.


Reminder: Make sure you have a paypal account before registering to the above-mentioned paying sites. This is to ensure you will be paid in participating online surveys and bumping a site. To apply for paypal account, go to PayPal's official site.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Cheer Up, Friend

Nabasa nyo na ba yung post ko sa fanbox "To My Friend"? Malamang hindi pa dahil nasa fanbox yun. Alam nyo, di ko talaga in-expect na madami ang magri-react dun sa blog entry ko. Imagine, madami ang na-touch sa story ng friend ko? Wish ko, sana wag magalit sa'kin ang friend ko kung kinuwento ko yung mga sinabi nya sa'kin that night (peace!). I'm not sure kung accurate yung kwento ko, but I really hope malaman niyang madami pa talagang nagmamahal sa kanya aside from her loved one(s). To my friend, please don't lose hope. I love you and I will always do. Thank you for calling me and letting me know about your problem. I'm so glad for being ne of those people na sinabihan mo about it. I really love the idea that you consider me a friend. After all what happened to you, after all the problems you've been through, I can say na may nakilala na naman akong tao na patuloy na mag-i-inspire sa'kin to keep on living. Before, akala ko, I'm strong. But when I meet you, I realize na you're stronger than me. So, don't give up. Kaya mo yan!

I just hope maging tulad ako sa'yo na super strong, daig pa si Reming at si Ondoy,. Wish me luck, hehe!

Monday, March 1, 2010

MarJoLe Through Ups and Downs



Happy Tuesday, everyone!


Today, I want to share something about my relationship with Jonah and Lea, two of the people who never failed to inspire me. Actually, we we're not close when we were still young. Mas madalas pa nga kami mag-away noon kesa magkwentuhan about something. Things suddenly changed when our mother died on March 26, 2002. Since then, I promised to them that I will take care of them. I also told them na whenever they have a problem, they can always depend on me.

Medyo mahirap talaga pag gumawa ka ng promise habang malungkot ka. Sabi nga ng friend ko noon, "Don't make decision when you're angry, and don't make promise if you're sad." Totoong-totoo yun. Sa una, nahirapan talaga akong panindigan ang promise ko to take care of them and to be always the one na pwede nilang asahan when they have a problem. There are times when I got angry or suddenly became mad at them for some reasons. Parang sila yung napagbubuntunan ko ng lahat ng pressures na napi-feel ko.

One time, parang sinumbatan ako ni Lea. Sabi niya, "Akala ko ba pwede ka naming asahan anytime? Nagpromise ka na we will always take care of each other pero bakit ganyan ka? Sabi mo, ikaw ang pwede naming asahan ngayong wala na si Mama?" I also remembered Jonah saying, "Promise-promise ka diyan, di mo naman pala kayang tuparin!" All those words touched my heart. Since then, I promised to myself to be more responsible. Naisip ko din na dapat panindigan ko ang promise ko sa kanila. Besides, it was my fault naman talaga.

By the way, we have created a group when I was high school, during the time we're staying at Marigondon. We called ourselves as MarJoLe Members or MarJoLe Sisters. Obviously, name namin yun, hehe. We don't care if some people would criticize us for being so mean - kasi di namin isinama ang three other sisters namin. Well, we just don't feel na isama sila kasi there are times when they can't understand how we feel. Besides, they don't know and don't care sa mga corny stuffs like that - creating corny group. Also, we (MarJoLe) have something in common: lahat kami isip-bata. I know that. But I'm proud ganun ako. At least, yun ang naging way para maging close kami. In fairness, may sense naman ang pagiging isip-bata namin. I'm not saying na dini-disregard ko yung three ates namin. Ang akin lang, group namin 'tong tatlo. May group naman kami na kasama silang three, yung Six Marias, hehe.

Though hindi kasama ang three elder sisters namin, I want them to know the we care for them. We love them just like how we love each member of MarJoLe. Kumbaga, ang pinagkaiba lang, corny kami. Naiisip ko nga minsan, siguro kung totoo si Doraemon, kung nag-i-exist siya sa Earth, he will never let some things happen. Siguro, gagawin niya kaming close - kaming lahat na Six Marias. Up to now, isa pa rin sa greatest dreams ko ang maging close kaming anim. Sana mawala na ang lahat ng conflicts with each other. Sana maging mas understanding na ang bawat isa sa'min. Sana mawala na yung mga bitterness. Sana. Sana. Sana.

I don't know the exact time or day when we became really close. Ganun naman ata talaga ang tao. Di naman kasi natin lagi nilalagay sa diary kung kelan natin naging close ang isang tao. Minsan kasi, simpleng pag-uusap nyo ang magiging way para maging close kayo ng isang tao. Who knows naman na ang pag-uusap pala na yun ang pinaka-start ng closeness nyo?

As of now, I am still happy kahit madami pa ring nai-encounter na problema. I feel proud na may mga taong masaya na naging part ako ng buhay nila. I am so happy for having two sisters who always make me feel important, needed, and loved. Before, si Mama lang ang inspiration ko. When she died, I felt like I was abandoned and unloved. But then, I learned there are still people who cared about me. So, now... I am tin..troubled, but inspired to live life to the fullest.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Happy Birthday, Ai


Since today is February 26, 2010, I want to dedicate this article to my friend, Aileen Mazo, who is celebrating her 22nd birthday today.

I really can't remember kung kelan kami naging "friends" ni Ai. I mean, I don't know the exact date. One thing is for sure - first week yun ng December. Nagstart ako magboard sa boarding house niya nung December 1, 2008. During the first few days of staying there, di kami masyado nagkakausap. Si Che lang lagi kong inaabutan dun. Tahimik pa naman si Che, nahihiya tuloy ako minsan makipaghuntahan ng bongga sa kanya.

Naalala ko pa, first approach niya sa'kin noon, "Hi, Margene." I'm not sure kung yun talaga yung exact words niya, but she called me by my first name, hehe. She saw my file case daw kasi and asked Che kung sino may-ari nun. So, there - nalaman niyang Margene ang name ko.

At first, very shy talaga akong ipakita sa kanila ni Che ang tunay kong ugali. Di pa ko nun tumatawa ng malakas kahit grabe na ang gusto kong itawa. Then, one time, may pinag-usapan kami - actually, chismis yun about some anek-anek, haha. Bawal sabihin dito kasi baka may mapikon sa'min, joke! Basta after ng kwentuhang yun, naging close na kami.

By the way, her first text for me is this: "Tears is the most meaningful liquid. Wanna know why? Because out of many liquids here in the world, only tears can explain the real meaning of pain."

During the Christmas party on December 13 (not sure), 2008, sama-sama kaming magbo-boardmates plus ate Cecil (my friend way back in WPCAT Days). Aside from Ai and Che, my other boardmates at that time are KUya Lex, Tam, Gie, and Seth. Kuya Lex is my friends since WPCAT Days also. Si Tam, dun ko na lang naging close sa boarding house. I really don't know him before I stayed there. The two boys are nice. (May isa pa palang male boarder dun noon, si Angel. Sa Gaisano siya nagawork. Nice din sya. Minsan, siya kausap ko pag wala pa yung iba dun. He's so religious.) May isa pa pala akong na-meet dun sa boarding house, si Gee na taga-Virac, Catanduanes. Kaso di kami masyado nakapag-bonding kasi umalis din siya agad sa boarding house after ko lumipat dun. Nagresign na kasi siya noon sa COSI.

Gie and Seth are best friends since college. BUCAF graduates sila at ahead ng one year sa'min ni Ai. They both work sa Gaisano that time. Si Seth, napakatahimik. Si Gie, okay naman. Di ko nga inexpect na magiging close kami up to now na nasa DENR na siya. Pumupunta siya sa boarding house pag vacant Sunday niya.

Back to Ai, di ko talaga alam kung pa'no kami naging close. Basta namalayan ko na lang, nahawaan ko na siya sa kalokohan. Ang pinakagusto kong moment namin yung binabato niya 'ko ng tuwalya niya. Ewan ko kung bakit ginagawa niya yun. Basta ang alam ko, di naman ako nasasaktan, nag-e-enjoy pa nga ako, hahaha!

On a serious note, I'm so happy for having a friend like her. I'm sure marami pa akong makikilang friends someday, but there's one thing I wanna say to her: I will be her friend no matter what happens, as long as she wants me. Sana kahit marami na siyang makilala at maging friends, lalo na ngayong nasa Sorsogon na siya, wag niyang kakalimutan si tin - ang kanyang kakambal sa boarding house ni Ate Miriam.

Ai, Happy Birthday!!!!!! Sana marami ka pang mabato ng tuwalya, hehehe peace! Good Luck, girl!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

My Unforgettable Moment with my Co-Workers in SL

Yesterday, I and Ate Mitch (my newfound friend here in SL) are already on our way home from work when we suddenly decide to down near the entrance of Embarcadero. Later on, we enjoyed taking pictures with each other. Di pa kami nakuntento, we even took pictures together. That's really funny!

When JP (my fellow writer) passed by with Ma'am Annie (HR Staff) and Ma'am Ivy (I think she's a trainer for call center agents - not sure, though), they joined us. Wow, that's a very amazing experience to bond with them. I never get close with Ma'am Annie and Ma'am Ivy before, it was just yesterday. We had some picture-taking together and I will post them here very soon.

How I wish, palagi ganito. Kahit pa'no nabibigyan ako ng reason to stay in the company. Sana ibigay na ni Lord yung pinakagusto kong maging reason to stay there - sana I get what I and my fellow employees deserve to have. Period.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

My Thoughts for Today, February 3, 2010


(I am the one wearing red t-shirt. Obviously, I am the celebrant, hehe. Along with me in this photo are Ai, Kaye, Eisha, Cha, Ate Ayen, Tam, and Kuya Lex. Teka, parang wala dito si Sheena. Siya ata ang kumuha ng shot na 'to.)

December 20, 2009 was my most unforgettable birthday. During that day, I felt mix feelings - sadness, depression, and happiness. Yes, it may sound weird, but I really felt happy and sad at the same time. I am happy because my boyfriend and friends are there - together with me, celebrating my birthday. I'm deeply sad because I lost my first job a day before that big day. As a result, I got depressed. My gosh! I can't believe I could move on - but I finally did. It's February now, the month for lovers and the month that reminds me to be happy. So, here I am now. Happy and contented of what I have.

Anyway, Happy New Year and Advance Valentine's Day!!!!